I was lost in a mind fuck for a couple of days. Man am I sorry for what I did. I lost the best thing that’s ever happened to me. I honesty felt like shooting myself in the head. I’m so sorry, still. If you k we her you’d understand. She’s nothing like anyone you’ve ever met. You’d probably fall in love with her. Trust me, you’d fall in love with her. I’m 30 years old and by the looks of things I will be alone for the rest of my life. I’m trying to stay positive, but things like this really fuck me up. You know, me fucking things up. I hope she’s okay. It’s been a day and some change and I have not heard from her. I just hope she’s moving forward staying positive staying happy. “Say cheese!”I’d say to her hoping she smile. I always could make her smile. God dam I miss her.